pinhead - since you have been helping me let me toss something out for you. These WAS' are most likely responding to something from their past - abandonment, commitment fears, abuse, etc. So what we add to the mix is a very small part. The same is true of the reverse - our reactions are based on our past. But as Michele says it doesn't help to know that unless you do something to fix it now.
Try not to dwell on the sadness and your pain. The minute you start going down that path think of something, anything, that brings you some joy. For me, I thought of DD and, this may surprise you, I thought of an awesome tennis shot I'd made years ago (don't play anymore).
I believe we choose our mates to try to fix our past problems, and at some point we need to stand up and say - hey, I'm better than that past and I'm going to live my life the way I want to be NOW.
I did some bad things to my H. I'm not proud of how I handled things. I HATE what he did to me and the pain he has caused and is causing, but I'm going to focus on today and being the best I can be today. And God give me patience!
He: WAH Me: LBW Precious: DD
~ I'm grateful for every day I have to improve the way I relate.