I know how hard this was for you and your family. My heart goes out to you and yours. I had to do something similar with my grandmother. She was home alone and had Alzheimer. I could not get her into a nursing home, so at the dr. recommendation I waited for her to "threaten suicide", so I called the cops. I stood there in a small NYC apt while 10 cops came storming in to arrest my little old grannie. It was f*in heartbreaking. She is now safe and in a nursing home. As hard as this was IT needed to be done.
So..don't beat yourself up. Let any guilt that you have go. You did the right thing for you Dad. He will be better for it. So go cry and then pick yourself up...look in the mirror and know this...YOU ARE ONE STRONG CHICK! It take balls to make a call like this. This only shows me the strength you have...it's in you...
Now get back to work and dig deep. Another good book for you... codependent no more.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
