Quote: can't help but think "what if", in looking at pics of myself and having seen many pics of my mother when she was young..the resemblace is uncanny...not just looks but mostly expressions...am I destined to live the same life? I know I cannot dwell in such thoughts all I can do is tell myself I am my mothers daughter but I am not my mother..and though my h is a man and has made some of the same mistakes my father made he is not my father...our future is not related to THEIR pasts...
And NEVER forget it!
You have the great advantage of INSIGHT here, LL ...of KNOWING that is NOT the life you want nor will allow to happen. I sense much more strength, self-awareness, and genuine yearning in you...plus it IS a whole different era, isn't it?
Shiny
P.S. If it makes you feel any better, CJ got a lead on a possible job today and so has been buried in his laptop since I got up.
We didn't even share a meal today, which is unusual.
I was doing my laps around the house and asked if I could put some tunes on. (he wears an earphone and listens to his own tunes while he works). He glanced up and said...
"No offense, but I'm ignoring you".
And so it's gone for the rest of the night. A little more gruff than necessary, but preferable to passive aggression in my humble opinion.
