Had a really awful weekend. I felt depressed mostly and all of this is just so SUCKY. I know I need to get myself together but the pain is really heavy sometimes. I didn't sleep last night very well and kept waking up. I took a nap yesterday and was jolted out of it thinking about this. Like a panic attack.
I have class after work today and still have 4 tests I need to take before class ends (on Wed) and mentally I feel dead.
Saw H over the weekend on the road, riding his motorcycle w/ his boys, laughing it up. I texted him "Did you ever love me. I don't feel it." And he texted back "I did and still do."
