Got out of the house before the W and kids woke up, I am going to start doing that to let the W see what its like with me around even less. I dont like to do it to the kids, they always want a hug and kiss in the AM, which I would have done this morning in their beds but they were in the W's bed, so I let it be.
I bought a new book last night called "fearless" only read the first 2 chapters but i can see so many similarities to what I and I am sure a lot of us feel during our siuations. It talks about the fear of everything from relationships, money, health and the fact that when we live in fear we cannot enjoy happiness, joy or success fear is something that takes over your mind, heart and sould and is like a disease it kills any other emotions. By saying that you need to beat the fear out of you, its different for everyone on how to do this, but it needs to be done to fulfill what you are looking for in life.
I felt the W was looking for more interaction with me last night, not really physical but just something more. I was not totally dark to her, very friendly and upbeat and smiling.
I did text her this morning about the electric bill, we had a disagreement on what we owed, she kept telling me that we were current. I called this morning and she was right. So I texted her and said your right I am wrong, which is a big 180 for me, hate to admit being wrong. So I am sure that will show an alliance with her feelings for the issue we discussed.
