Breaking vows is a tough thing. I used to be so mad at my wife for giving up, for wanting to leave. She's tough, stubborn, and used to pride herself on sticking things out. So to see her use MC as validation for leaving, as well as counseling with our pastor, hurts. It diminishes her in my eyes.
I made my vows before Christ, our families, and each other. To this day I believe in those vows, and am having a hard time reconciling them with this impending divorce. I believe that anything is possible through the Lord, though not always what you want or think you need.
I will always love, honor and cherish my wife. In sickness and in health, in good times and in bad. I may not be with her, and she may be with someone else, but those actions will be how I live my life. I can go to my maker knowing that I did all that I could. That gives me great comfort, and helps me to choose to do the Right Thing, when part of me wants to lash out in pain and hurt.
