Cry a river, build a bridge, and get over it

[ImprovedRomeo]

Well they're all foreign students from Switzerland and as I was playing with DD on the beach they came over and said 'hi, you're so adorable with your daughter. When you have a minute can you please rub this sun tan lotion on us?' I looked at them and said 'are you nuts? I'm not that kinda guy you know and I'm under strict order from wii not to do this kinda stuff' -

OK seriously, they are not foreign or anything, just these girls that I've seen at the meetup group events like the bonfire. They're totally friendly, all three young divorced moms. One of them is super sweet and always helps me with stuff...very homely - oh and trust me neither I nor anyone I know like bitchy women so that much talked about book here 'why men love bitches?' or something I really don't know if I'll follow it. We want nice caring women.

Anyway, so then there this 4th girl too, she's a bit younger, no kids and she's texted me a few times like 'It was great talking to you the other day if you want to hangout my nights are free on x y z' etc. The other day I even had a dream about her and woke up just feeling without energy to even get out of the bed. I think my mind was fighting my heart all night. It was weird. Appearance wise she's cute but a bit overweight. I'd totally go out with her for a casual date or two but I don't think I'm ready for a long term relationship. Actually it's even more complicated with her than the others and I don't want to talk about it here...maybe FB.

Overall I think it was really nice that I ended up talking to so many girls this weekend. At one time I was so desperate for any woman to say/show that I was OK looking etc. So this kinda validated for me that I am in fact desirable by the opposite sex that I don't need to be so worried like I have been in the past.

Now it's becoming complicated and I'm feeling a bit trapped. So I need to just chill and not even think about this. And somehow let the 4th girl down easy...even though I want to hang out with her it'll only make things more complicated later.