On my wqay home been gone 2 and 1/2 hours robx we habent been intimate in a month, I think its a teaser it won't lead to that, god knows I need it, I'm human but we will see. I'm not going to be overly sensual with it she will probably be mad I am home late
Well rob, W was not mad when I got home, she still had me work on her back then she told me to lay down, then she worked on me. Clothes on it was all civil, I know I got your hopes up but nothin happened. I thanked her and said u worked on me longer, she said I wanted you to know what to do next time I brought home the equipment. I am off to bed everyone have a good week and I will keep posting/journaling. BTW she didn't light me up with texts tonight, difference was she thought I was at a meeting compared to last night being out at a club. Makes ya think
Got out of the house before the W and kids woke up, I am going to start doing that to let the W see what its like with me around even less. I dont like to do it to the kids, they always want a hug and kiss in the AM, which I would have done this morning in their beds but they were in the W's bed, so I let it be.
I bought a new book last night called "fearless" only read the first 2 chapters but i can see so many similarities to what I and I am sure a lot of us feel during our siuations. It talks about the fear of everything from relationships, money, health and the fact that when we live in fear we cannot enjoy happiness, joy or success fear is something that takes over your mind, heart and sould and is like a disease it kills any other emotions. By saying that you need to beat the fear out of you, its different for everyone on how to do this, but it needs to be done to fulfill what you are looking for in life.
I felt the W was looking for more interaction with me last night, not really physical but just something more. I was not totally dark to her, very friendly and upbeat and smiling.
I did text her this morning about the electric bill, we had a disagreement on what we owed, she kept telling me that we were current. I called this morning and she was right. So I texted her and said your right I am wrong, which is a big 180 for me, hate to admit being wrong. So I am sure that will show an alliance with her feelings for the issue we discussed.
Well I just got lit up from the W. I deserved it. I made some sh*t up about getting the kids stuff, which actually was free since I bought something. One of W's problems with me is I lie about the little stuff, and in the fragile state our M is in it makes it that much worse. She stated to me "you are doing things to make yourself a better man, better father and husband" and you still lie about stupid crap. She is so right its pathetic, why do I do this? I make progress then bam!
She hung up on me, and I am not going to call her back I need to send her an email, which I have drafted and will post before I send it, need feedback please!
As I typed this she sent me this email,
Why do you lie about things. You say you lie because you are embarrassed....what about this? This is why I cannot believe you. I always want to and thats what got me here. You did it again. Why do you lie?
Well rob, W was not mad when I got home, she still had me work on her back then she told me to lay down, then she worked on me. Clothes on it was all civil, I know I got your hopes up but nothin happened. I thanked her and said u worked on me longer, she said I wanted you to know what to do next time I brought home the equipment. I am off to bed everyone have a good week and I will keep posting/journaling. BTW she didn't light me up with texts tonight, difference was she thought I was at a meeting compared to last night being out at a club. Makes ya think
Peace
well you went from your wife wanting to kick you out of the home and separate to having her give you a back rub last night.
Why don't you compare situations with most of the guys on this site and see how many would pay to be in your shoes for one night (last night specifically), I think job well done ;-)
Got out of the house before the W and kids woke up, I am going to start doing that to let the W see what its like with me around even less. I dont like to do it to the kids, they always want a hug and kiss in the AM, which I would have done this morning in their beds but they were in the W's bed, so I let it be.
I bought a new book last night called "fearless" only read the first 2 chapters but i can see so many similarities to what I and I am sure a lot of us feel during our siuations. It talks about the fear of everything from relationships, money, health and the fact that when we live in fear we cannot enjoy happiness, joy or success fear is something that takes over your mind, heart and sould and is like a disease it kills any other emotions. By saying that you need to beat the fear out of you, its different for everyone on how to do this, but it needs to be done to fulfill what you are looking for in life.
I felt the W was looking for more interaction with me last night, not really physical but just something more. I was not totally dark to her, very friendly and upbeat and smiling.
I did text her this morning about the electric bill, we had a disagreement on what we owed, she kept telling me that we were current. I called this morning and she was right. So I texted her and said your right I am wrong, which is a big 180 for me, hate to admit being wrong. So I am sure that will show an alliance with her feelings for the issue we discussed.
only possibly problem with this is that you initiated contacted on this one, I would have waited for a time where the discussion on this issue was happening between you & your wife and you offered that response.
it has taken an evil turn this morning, yes I know a lot of others would love to be in my shoes, until this morning. I hope to read some wise advice shortly as too handling this morning.
Wife wrote: Why do you lie about things. You say you lie because you are embarrassed....what about this? This is why I cannot believe you. I always want to and thats what got me here. You did it again. Why do you lie?
Seriously I don't know. Maybe I'm a compulsive liar. Maybe I'm afraid of your reaction to what ever I say or do, maybe i'm afraid of you being angry at me. Maybe I feel like whatever I do isn't good enough on some level, I'm not sure anymore but it definitely is a problem.
Your right, I bought things yesterday, the necklaces and shirt were purchased. I bought something for me and got the bags for free.
I don't why I didn't tell the truth, But obviously lies big or small are a big deal. I have no excuse for doing it.
it has taken an evil turn this morning, yes I know a lot of others would love to be in my shoes, until this morning. I hope to read some wise advice shortly as too handling this morning.
Remember about the arguments, don't defend yourself, quickest way to end the argument is NOT defend yourself.
"You are right, I was wrong"
"Yup, I lied, I can see why you could never trust someone like me"
"I'm a liar, I can't even understand it myself, I had no real reason to lie but I lied just the same and all I can say is sorry for lying to you, it was the wrong thing to do."
