Quote: You don't LL. You don't know. We can never really know. I'm in the same boat except I love my H very much and want our M to work. I'd have been LONG gone by now if I didn't. I have to figure out if I can live with the not knowing. They say it gets easier-that trust comes in time. Right now, that's what I'm banking on. Rachael
not in much of a different boat rachael,
I do want my m to work and I do believe I love my h..can't imagine why I would have taken him home after all if I didn't. right?
I suppose it is true that nothing in life is certain cept for maybe death and taxes (but then again some say elvis isn't dead and taxes? well I've met a few who don't pay those either) but marriage was something that I thought was certain and perhaps in another day and age it was...now h has shown me that it isn't and that at any time he can reneg on that commitment...so now I am too faced with the fear that I could do the same.
now of course I know full well I am in control of myself and my feelings and actions but so were our spouses and most was...we call them aliens but I don't believe that...will I ever reach a point where I am content and trusting and fully vested once again in the r? or will I decide (intentionally or not) at some point that the pain however residual just isn't going away and I don't want to bear it any longer? not saying that is going to happen but what if?
ok ok I know deal with that when it comes, but what if it just sneaks up on me?
