Thanks Red, Not even sure this morning that I shouldn't move straight to Surviving the Big D. In a lot of pain this morning after a phone call with WH. He sent me an email insisting on seeing the baby, without me being present. I rang him to explain to him that his behaviour has been so harmful to me that it's very hard for me to get on with my life as a single & first time mother, that his visits upset me sometimes (there is no visitation plan - he didn't want one), and that I would like him to leave the country sooner rather than later so that I can heal (all he is doing here is packing up his stuff). I reminded him that he did not want to do seperation counseling with me and that we would be in a better place now had we done that. He tells me that leaving me pregnant was the right and honest thing to do and he was schoked that I was still "stuck" as I was in January (bomb) and that I was "unable to move on".
Words cannot explain how violated I feel. Not only did he leave me under the most terrible circumstances, it's my fault that aren't in a better place!
Unlike you Newmama, Gatsby and Babydoll, my WH has been a drop in drop out father, never once spending more than a few hours with us during the pregnancy or post birth... because he was 'teaching me to live life without him'.
