feelings as OW seems to be on way out

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Well, my sig pretty much sums things up. The OW is going to move 300 miles away. I don't know if she is breaking up w/X or if she'll be back periodically to carry on the charade, but it's not looking good for their R.

X has been sick. I imagine that it was hard for him to keep a 20-something adequately entertained. I believe she basically used his expertise to get ahead professionally. Now he is probably coming off as boring and old and, well, she has what she wants out of him, so it's time to discard him.

I am glad because I don't want D around OW--the less frequently, the better. And I guess part of me is glad to see the sugar daddy theory did seem to be the case. But D did have some feelings for OW (not that it ever seemed to occur to X that it wouldn't be a good idea to introduce them).

But as far as my own feelings...well, I guess I do feel for X. Not for the breakup, but for the fact that he is going to be alone with no family, very few, if any, friends, and no R. He has the same job that he hated, no money, no furniture (because MLCers can live under a rock, after all) and a hot, smelly apartment.

I would imagine there might be another OW soon as I am not sure if X can stand being alone.

I do have some concern that X might go to where OW is and truly abandon our D. HOwever, that would require initiative of a type he has seldom demonstrated.

And...what a waste. I don't know if X will ever see it that way, but what a waste.

I have to admit that part of me wishes that X would come around...but I don't know if I can stand to think about that any more.

So I move on, continue dating, but gosh. I'd be lying if I didn't admit that I feel some twinges here. It's harder than I thought.