QS, considering your highly reactive emotional state, I would suggest you do one of two things regarding your intel:
1. Only check it 1x/week or 2x/month.
2. Ask a trusted, discreet third party to check it for you, and only let you know things when you NEED to do, because you're imminently threatened legally or financially, for instance.
Looking at highly-charged, raw intel, DAILY, is tough enough for people who are able to get into "game mode." You're nowhere near that stage, and I agree with what someone said above -- this is sucking the life out of you.
