Quote: If he truely had awaken LL, he would be making sure he is putting body and soul into those words every day.
I don't know why your H reverted back, but the fact that the light did go on, if only briefly, holds promise that he is capable of "getting it" for good one day.
I don't know if I will ever be able to convince you that this momentous revelation lies ahead in your H's future and I say this because I see alot of your H in the person I use to be, but I hope you would at least consider its a possibility and is worthy of keeping the door open to it. If you are willing to accept that "yes, one day this can happen", then your continued efforts should focus on working towards waiting for him on the "other" side, so you have a chance at being in sync.
I feel such a sense of tragedy that I took so long to "get it" that CAW had already abandoned "us" when I did arrive ... and now I'm starting to feel it has become too late for CAW to ever come back. I just don't wish to see you go down that road too.
been waiting a long time KAW...I knew it was in him...knew that work kept it at bay...waited and waited...my hope is for more consitantcy from him in this regard (hey after all he did suggest dinner out with the kids last sat night..and when that attempt was a fluke suggested breakfast out sun morning and even if that was all just out of guilt for going to the game sun night that's ok by me.)
but what if again while I'm waiting for him to have more time for me and the kids, he again finds someone else more worth giving the time to?????
not pitty party..not waw mode...not fear...just LL's typical "what if" way of looking at life. and not at all thinking he will do that again..but "what if"
