Quote: ...but we'll get together then..I know we'll have a good time then...
Exactly!! Your H is still in this mode of thinking (BTW, this song is one of my all time favorites). This is not the thinking of an enlighten man. The response of a man that "gets it" is...
"...but we'll get together now ..I know we'll have a good time now ..."
I'm aware your H did get a taste of his renaissance when he first known he wanted to come back, but he is not living up to those words he said...
Quote: ...I remember the conversation pretty well and recall telling him that it was wonderful he realized it now and shouldn't fret over lost time as most men don't realize the importance of their presence in their childrens lives as more than mere provider (not that that itself isn't a significant role) until their children are grown.
If he truely had awaken LL, he would be making sure he is putting body and soul into those words every day.
I don't know why your H reverted back, but the fact that the light did go on, if only briefly, holds promise that he is capable of "getting it" for good one day.
I don't know if I will ever be able to convince you that this momentous revelation lies ahead in your H's future and I say this because I see alot of your H in the person I use to be, but I hope you would at least consider its a possibility and is worthy of keeping the door open to it. If you are willing to accept that "yes, one day this can happen", then your continued efforts should focus on working towards waiting for him on the "other" side, so you have a chance at being in sync.
I feel such a sense of tragedy that I took so long to "get it" that CAW had already abandoned "us" when I did arrive ... and now I'm starting to feel it has become too late for CAW to ever come back. I just don't wish to see you go down that road too.
