Forgive me LL but the sense I get of your posts is that you do not like YOUR life. You may be projecting that into your R but the impression I got is 'I deserve more'
Are there any changes you want to make to your life? What do you want LL to be? I mean you, not the wife, the mother, the daughter or the neighbor.
If you look at LL herself, where do you see her in 5 years? Is that where she wants to be?
"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little"
Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"
