Definitely trying to take care of myself. S is down for a nap right now, so I'm thinking about trying to do a little yoga. I'm feeling ok overall, but I found that I'm having a short temper today and jumped all over S earlier. I had to apologize to him b/c what he did wasn't deserving of my attack. So that showed me this H thing is still affecting me more than I would like to admit, but overall, I'm handling it.
H texted me later last night to see what our plans were for today so that he could come see S. I'm let him know we would be going to church and then would be having pool time. (like I told him in the text, S is still the #1 priority, so whatever we can do to make his life better). I got a text from H a little bit ago saying that he had overslept (how can he get up on time for work but not for his S?) & asked how much longer S would be up before his nap. S just had a little longer before nap time as we were finishing up pool time then we were on our way inside for lunch. I didn't hear back after that, so I had to text again to see if he was coming, so that I wouldn't have just put S down for a nap & have H show up. H said that he was not coming b/c he didn't think he would have enough time to hang out with him anyways by the time he got ready and drove down. Actually, very true. S ended up falling asleep in his highchair during lunch! But at least in that sense, he was respecting my wishes & keeping it only about S. Before he would have come down anyways and tried to be all flirty. It's obviously a little lonely aready, but it is what it is, and that's the choice he's made. =/
Me 27; H 28; S 2 Togeth 9; M 4 Sep 11/14/08 EA OW1 Sep 08 EA OW2 Mar 09 EA OW3 Jun 10
