NM, I'm just catching up and until you posted about grandma I kept thinking to myself "NM, go with your instincts, be yourself, as long as you're not calling or texting him 10 times a day with him only responding then it's fine. We ain't getting any younger you know?"
The rejection is always hard but you don't want to be thinking about that. You should always try to keep your mind positive not negative! I know you want to do it so it's not a big disappointment and it's fine to acknowledge that feeling but then let it go. Don't hang on to it or it'll create that negative energy around that topic. I know it sounds BS but it's not. Besides, after having been rejected by our spouses and surviving it I think we'll be alright!
Now go have fun...
Me: 35|WAW: 38|D: 6yo | http://tinyurl.com/2dxx7m6 Feb 2006, left, came back in two weeks Aug 2006, left again Apr 2007, filed for divorce Dec 2007, reunited Mar 2010, moved out, filed again