Yeah - the nights are hard. I actually used to find the 4am wake-ups the hardest ... when you just can't go back to sleep.
Keep at it friend. This is a tough road and it's true that the pain you are feeling now is at times unbearable. Trust us though, it does go away. Slowly, silently, one day you'll wake up and life is good again. It will happen.
You are right to protect yourself and your children. That's the most important gift you can give yourself right now. It will cause some tension with your wife - but so what? It's time someone else in the family caused a bit of tension, hey?
take care
V
Never make someone a priority, who makes you an option.
