What a crzy night. ent out and before I was out of the driveway, W was texting me calling me an [censored] and the kids cry because I always leave them. I did not respond. She then texted me more angry feelings, and I just asked her to stop. She kept going and going, which I was polite calm and not confrontational. I did reply once with a hypocrit comment, but then left it alone. after about 1 AM she texted me and asked if I was safe? I said yes and that I was keeping an eye on the guy who invited us becasue he was loopy. I did not have one drink last night and was calm.
She then started to light me up about talking when I got home, but that my intentions were to stay out late so we couldnt talk, how controlling I was and that yet another way that I control her.
I finally came home got in bed and she came down and stood at the door about 2 AM. She immediately went into me as a liar, that she cant trust me I have lied about everything over the last 7 years and it has broken her beyond repair. I was calm, but stated if you want to talk lets talk, but I will not let her stand there and call me a liar for an hour. SHe says she has notice my changes but felt 2 weeks is not enough. She said that when I agreed to go to my brothers and changed my mind, it was yet another promise I made that I broke. Told her I changed my mind in the interest of me and the kids. I reiterated that if she wants out of the M, that is her choice, I will not fight her on it and she can leave.
We discussed the D, she said she doesnt see any other option, I told her that is her choice and that I would not fight her except where the kids are concerned. She has so much hate towards me, I feel her pain and I want to comfort her and take it out of her, but I cant, not overnight. It was not a bad talk, but it did not go the direction I wanted. Told her I did not invite her tonight because she has shown little interest in being with me, and I did not want to push te issue. She was obviously very jealous I was out, I did wear a new shirt and looked dapper. I know she noticed.
SHe went upstairs and sent me a text "NOt that I guess it matters anymore but why is it that u never fought for me? I started to reply, then I just went upstairs, stood next to the bed, and said what do you think I am fighting for? I would fight the devil himself for my family. Told her that I was sorry she did not feel comfort in me or us, and that I wish she could. I gave her a small hug and kissed her forehead and went back to bed, she just cried.
Dont know if I did good or backtracked, I did what felt right at the time, I do know that. So this week she could go talk to attorneys dont know nothing I can do about it.
I did ask her how she expects things to be earlier, she wants us to be cordial and stuff. Well we will see what today and the next bring.
