Ms. H, You have a wonderful family support system and you know that you can always count on your family to assist you. I'm just sorry for what has transpired over the last few years.
I hope that you are doing okay and are staying "cool". The weather here has very hot and humid. Hopefully a few days of lower 90's will come our way soon.
I do hope that you and the boys are having a great summer.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.