RLay

Thank you. Thank you for sharing. I am writing this on my Blackberry as I do not have internet access where I am. I will post more tommorrow when I can use my laptop.

I want u to know that I am sooooo proud of you. I want you to know that you are stronger than you think. I can "feel" it in your words. You have taken the first step honey. A step that YOU needed to take. Not only for you but for your kids AND your H. You have acknowledged what was going on. You recognize that you were abused. You have made a STAND.

Your H may not like this - it should not matter to you. Not now.

I want you to feel that anger...I mean really feel it. I cannot feel it for you. Only you can do this. I can tell you that reading your story made me want to jump in my jeep, drive to KY and beat the living sh*t out of your H. I am sorry to say - but he is a coward. He is a sad excuse for a man in my book. Having said this, and this may shock you - he can get better. He can fix HIS issues. Here is what you need to remember - they are his issues. You cannot help him BUT you can begin to heal yourself. You can have a live. Fuc* that...YOU will have a life. You will strive, you will gain strength BUT first honey You need to realize what HE did to you. He abused you. He sexually abused you. He physically abused you. So how does that make YOU feel? Angry I bet? Guess what it should. You have every right in this F'in world to be pissed the F off. Every right.

Soooo between me you and these boards what would you say or do to your H if you were not afraid. Can you post that for me. I can tell you that...me... I would as I have said..beat the living...

After you post what you would say or do...rest.

Rest tonight honey ....just rest.

I'll keep telling you ....your not alone. Your not.

I will check in tomorrow.

God Bless you and thank you...thank you for standing up for YOU

Eric


"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter".
"Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!"
"Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans