Well, I am doing my homework for a change. Professer said that I could make it up. Nice of him. Would be nicer if I just would do it and get done. Only 3 more weeks of school left and I am 3 weeks behind after all my crying and carrying on. Thanks for you guys help, mean or not, I need a good slap in the face. I will check back on here later tonight to see what insightful wisdom you have. lol thank you.
To all my friends out there. I am cooking a good meal tonight that I am going to eat. I got a lot of homework done and I will work on it again tomorrow. I feel better. I feel almost happy. Pray for me some more. I know lots of people are. Life is going to improve for me because I want it to. I will find myself again and I will be happy and start enjoying life and quit talking about killing myself and all that nonsense. Peace out. Talk to you guys later.
I had fish and ranch style beans. Stomach is full as can be since I havent had a true meal in weeks. Feel bloated. I have lost 30 something pounds and look like a skeleton. Who would find my actractive now? I am going to force nutrition down from now on. I think the lack of eating was destroying my thinking process. I have went from 200 lbs and well built athletic to 170 bone and weakling. I can't believe I did this to myself. Oh, well, I will get myself back. I am so week. I have been lifting weights like I always did but the strengh level is just gone. I hope I didn't set myself back months for what I had attained.
Hey I want to wish you the best!! I too am having a hard time with my sisuation, but we can pull and will pull through this somedays are harder than others, but we need to take care of ourselves as well. Well take care talk soon Hope
Thanks guys, eating food helped a lot.I didn't wake up with night sweets so bad that my bed was soaked last night. I slept the first night all the way through. Maybe i am seeing some hope. I don't feel all the bad this morning and i am planning on having one good day today. I didn't have any nightmares and i am not at a total loss for myself today. Maybe i am starting to get over all this. Hope so. Jeff
Par - I am having a hard time as well and still relatively new to all of this. Glad to see you are doing better today.
Me 41/H 49 M 12yrs No Kids Bomb 1/10/2010 H Deployed The three great essentials to achieve anything worth while are, first, hard work; second, stick-to-itiveness; third, common sense. T. Edison
Wife OD today. She didn't die but husband left I went and got her since no one in her family would. She is sleeping in my bed right now. Think I had a delimma before. Now what? I want to put her in a rehab and she said she would go. She can't even be woke up right now. I don't want to live like this again, with someone that I cant trust and dont believe. I wished for it and now I got it. What the hell do I do now. I don't feel any better, I don't feel worse but no better.
