Beyond Depression..but still a losing battle?

[Lucky11too]

So...I possibly might just have ended my M right now. I'm going to miss the positive attention from him, but enough is enough, and obviously with OW3 involved, it's meaningless anyways. So like I said, last night, H called me to say that he wasn't going to be coming down as planned b/c he was too tired (from supposedly being at the gym til 5am and then working at 10:45) & that he was just going to go home and get to sleep early so that he could come see S today. Well, it is now 4:00 & not one word from H all day. So, I checked the phone records. (This is when I think a little snooping is ok, b/c otherwise I am completely naive & get played as a fool - but I just won't let snooping control my life) Last night, before he called me, he called OW3. It was erriely suspicous of what used to happen with OW1. He would call OW1 and then suddenly plans with me would be cancelled. Then later that night, he called a taxi (which meant he was drinking - but at least he is always smart enough not to drink & drive - pretty much the only brain sense he has). So yeah, not so much of being home and sleeping, huh? I furious for S too that he didn't come. I'm just glad I didn't mention anything to him about it or he would have been heartbroken. So anyways, enough is enough, so I just sent him a very long text message. Basically, loving but firm, bascially asking why he's been so nice to me (also about horoscopes saying we should be together) and what that means to him and saying how I would like an R with him, but then explained the pain he has caused for me from OW1, OW2, and now OW3, and while I can't control him, I can control myself and don't have to continue being hurt anymore. Ending with, "if you want to continue your R with her, there will be no us, so please do not contact me, except regarding S." The end! Yikes. I'm sure it's going to infuriate him, but this is serious. I can see things with OW3 getting more serious by the day so I need to end OW3 now or end us. It's a little scary though..the unknown. I don't know what's going to happen now, but no text back yet...