I know I have not detached. MY DB Coach helped me a lot last night, but then I received that text I was talking about in my post. It's almost to the point where I see reality and I'm trying to embrace it, I finally had the courage to sign the papers, I let her know this...and then she asks me if I'm going to sign? WTF!
It was instant anger and I'm still mad...I even beat the crap out of my pillow, hoping to relieve it...I've prayed about it...I'm just tired of feeling this way. Literally, tired! I just want to snap my fingers and not give a damn anymore. It hurts me more to feel this anger, than the pain of missing my wife.
I did a no-no and snapped back at her text. Haven't heard a word and really don't care if I hurt her, or if she was drunk and trying to show her friends or OM how I would react, or whatever the hell the purpose was. Now, I'm mad that I even responded. ARGGGGGGGGGGGGH
Then I just get this sinking feeling that maybe she's just lost her mind...when she interacts it seems like she just doesn't know WTF she's doing or saying. From one extreme to the other.
