One thing that makes me cope better is thinking of what I've been missing in a relationship. I consider myself very affectionate, but with my W things have always been out of whack. Little things like touches, caresses, even when we ML it always seemed centered on my W instead of a mutual thing.
So now when I get mad or hurt, or sad, or bitter, I think of how great it will be to be in another relationship where my affection isn't squelched, where I can love someone mutually, where I'm happy. I haven't been happy in years, though I'm the LBS. I can't wait to start to enjoy the company of a woman who has something to give, not someone who just takes and takes.
Too bad for my daughters that they have her for a role model; hopefully I can counteract that influence by being the best dad, in a happy and healthy relationship.
