She's 47 I'm 45. Married almost 17 years. Together 18.
We've had a great life until the last 5 years or so. I now know I have been dealing with mlc and acute depression.
She, has been on about a 2 year run of premenopause. It's finally come to a head. Now bear in mind, I've been oblivious of any of this. Stuck in a fog of alcohol abuse, failed mlc business etc.etc. ad nauseum.
She dropped the S bomb on me 7-16-10 so I'm pretty fresh.
I found this site that nite and Saturday morning as I tried to find the answers. It was a relief initially for me.
Then, the more I read of the stages of marriage and the stuff we're going through, it dawned on me that it would be a giant waste to throw this away. I feel that we just need to get past this hump and it could be pure magic!
BTW, we're almost empty nesters. Last S of 15 and a daughter that's 23 still living at home. I married her with 3 D2,S1 and we had another.
The 23yo is getting married this oct. at our home.
So, in home seperation. We have sep. bedrooms. My snoring and her MLS.
We can't afford sep. places. And she just wants to ride it out until after the wedding.
She's silent right now and angry. I have to watch the tone of my voice, it's like startling a fawn.
I've never laid a hand on my wife but I have been snide, verbally abusive and just a plain ol' depressed bonehead.
I was lucky that I found this that night. It's kept me from any emotional out bursts other than last saturday I did a bit of blubbering.
I want my beautiful best friend back.
I want her to look at me with respect and love in her eyes again.
I want to change me to be a better man for her and my self.
I do not want these kids to see us do this terrible thing.
Any questions, and I'll try to amswer promptly.
As far as I know there's no om at this point. She is part of a group of women that are extremely close. So, she has plenty of support.
I have a brother for an ear, and that's it. Well, now you fine folks.
