Well no "replay" yet of the other night but things is really good. I can see W is getting more at ease around me. She was talking to me about going to yoga and maybe joining this kind of spiritual group. Now it's not religion but like a meditation / self centering group. I think this is also a big step for W becasue she always refused to try any self help books or self improvement things. Even though I am a little worried about money and she does need to go get a job. I did encourage her to go. I did ask if it was a male female group becasue she heard about it at her "curves" gym. (An all female gym). I asked becasue I thought this would be a great way for US to do something together. She said she thinks so but they meet in the morning. This is too bad because I am in school at that time. Last night during the night I did put my arm around her and cuddled a little but it was hot (temp wise) so not for long. I have to be really careful right now because I know I am my own worst enemy. I need to NOT assume any negative things. Some people are telling me that If I had exposed the A three years ago I would have saved me this entire wait. She may have come back to me sooner but then again I figure that if I had exposed it then it may have been over sooner with her leaving me. NOT to mention that since it seems like we are working things out… I do not have to explain anything to family or friends why I took her back. I figure it took 19 years of marriage to screw things up… it took three years to get back on track.. And hopefully will only take one year to rebuild
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
