I'm so sorry, QS. It's going to take awhile, and there are going to be so many things that remind you of her. Make your fitting memorial, and then try to put the other stuff (her toys, etc.) away safely so you don't have to keep being reminded.

As for this:

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My wife is having her cremated, and will scatter the ashes "when she is ready", of course meaning I won't be allowed to be there.


I trust you to do what YOU want to do in this regard.

Puppy