I tried, I changed, but still am getting divorced!

[newmama]

Well what do you know...10:30 p.m. I get a text from zoobrew! "Hey you." The funny thing is that I actually fell asleep! Was tired and crashed. Well at 11:30 I heard my phone buzz and it was another friend texting. So I look at it and then realize zoobrew had texted me!

So I reply back and after a few exchanges he says "this texting is for the birds... I'm calling!"

And what do you know...he asked "did you just get back or something?" I didn't tell him I was sleeping,lol! But I did tell him that I don't normally go out every Friday night because I have my son, so I go out on Saturday nights. When he asked why I went out last Friday I said that I had arranged babysitting and will do that once in awhile but it was just a fluke...going out both Fri and Sat nights!


So we talked for another couple hours but I was trying to gently let him know that I had to go to bed because my son would get up in 5.5 hours...and then it was 5 hours...I was saying "I really am enjoying talking to you but my son is going to get up very soon..." and he kept talking. I finally said "well we should say good night because I have to get up in 5 hours." And he said "ok well let's talk again...soon!" and I said "sure, yes!"

I did not ask him "when are we going to go out? What do you have available?" because that would be controlling. But I am such a planner and I do need to know if I need to get babysitting!

Now in the middle of the conversation, I think I brought up the next date (briefly) and discussed kayaking a little. Well we still didn't get around to planning when we would do it. I do have to make reservations...if I could figure out when! I think I might have asked him if that is what he still wanted to do or something but then he said something like "yeah, my week has been crazy! that's why I haven't called you..." but it was not super clear.

I was tired and not on top of my game and said some stupid things! embarrassing! But I think by the end left with a good impression! Oh well....the real me can be an airhead once in awhile. Nobody's perfect!

I DID detect a little defensiveness from him at various points, though.

again...I need to relax because this is just for fun, nothing serious!