Well, I am still trying to not feel the pain of this whole thing. I am taking S to Disney World with my family and W is staying home. We have been getting along very well, like friends though. Anyway it is VERY hot and humid here and we do not have A/C in all of the rooms. My bedroom, used to be ours, and S room. Well we are leaving tomorrow morning and so she decided she is going to sleep on the hardwood floor in S room so it is air conditioned and will not sleep in our bed with me or the floor in our room. I keep getting my hopes up when we get along so well and then this hits me like a bat to the head. Is there still a possibility for us? When we get along so well I just think we are so close and then something like this. I did not react to it, but it hurts in my gut. Right now I think I am going with my plan for waiting to see what she does for our anniversary. I do not expect much but I do expect some acknowledgement. If she does nothing, I think I will at that point ask if she is willing to work on us. If she does then to MC, if not to a lawyer. Or am I making a mistake? I just do not know how long to wait or if I should. I love to be with her and I do love her, but when I have not affection in any way, I really am starting to hurt not being able to have anyone to hold. I have plenty of friends, I want my wife back but I do not know if it is possible. I know I can’t make her come back, but how do I know when she is not going to turn it. I just keep thinking that how can she be so cold intimately and yet we do everything together as a family. She cannot get over her resentment for things I did in the past if we do not work on anything. I just do not get it.
