Bipolar is hard to deal with. I know you love her but they do not act normal all the time and impossible to read. Do not try to understand or read to much into what she is saying-it can get you hurt again. She means half of what she is saying and doing something else half the time. Just try to relax. She needs meds to work her brain out. I know this my ex is bipolar and has tried to self medicate herself for years. It didn't work for her. I hope yours can get the right treatment and you can get you life and marriage back where you want it.