Thanks Lance That was an interesting article. I cannot wait to get the book.
So I backslid and texted my H last night. I have had a rough couple of days..just very teary and emotional. PMS- hopefully...or else perhaps I am depressed??!!!!
I wrote "dueling ipods solo is a win win". Me and my H always would sit around and play dueling ipods. This started a back and forth that lasted almost 3 hours. For the most part...it was joking back and forth. Then I asked about the papers- and the conversation kind of took a turn slightly south.
He mentioned he didn't want adultery again. I asked him to give me the divorce I am asking for- after the abuse and adultery..please. He said he didn't abuse me...he said "I am hurt that you feel this way. Maybe sometimes I said things I shouldnt have said but for u to say that..it is unfair. I had an affair. It was terrible wrong but I always wanted what was best for you. Always worked or tried to help u broaden urself and your experiences...always tried to make u better or more knowledgeable or more intellectually curious."
I thought to myself- by constantly telling me what was wrong with me and putting me down???? I just responded..."you did the best that you could". Ughh!!! why did I engage. I feel worse than I did before.
