I don't even care if it's convincing anymore.

My emotions are all over the place...It was "my" closure. I can't expend anymore energy on this, it's a waste of my life. 2 days ago I reached out to a friend that doesn't drink laugh and we already have plans to go fishing next weekend.

I've been off and on to the gym, but I'm focusing on looking and feeling good from here on out. So even when i feel down I'm going to the gym...nutrition wise I haven't eaten hardly at all...but my appetite is starting to come back which is good. Sleep has been much better this week...instead of staying up til 1 or 2 am Ive been crashing around 11pm and not waking at 4am

Me not drinking for a week has been a HUGE difference too. I'm feeling different and I'm truly seeing things without denial for a change.

All in all I'm on the right path. I'm looking forward to the DB coach session to help me verbally (instead of typing)talk to someone with an unbiased objective.