Heartbroken and needing help!

[irishblessings]

Thank you Seeking and Warrior. I think I needed to hear other perceptions ~ sometimes you can find yourself too close to the situation. Warrior - do not apologize for sharing honesty ~ hearing that you both see MLC helps me out quite a bit.

Here's my "theory" (actually writing this out to keep me straight)
7 years ago (age 40) ~ MLC began / left coaching / unhappy / began looking at porn / trigger sexual addiction
5 years ago (age 42) ~ still MLCing / moved from porn to phone sex chat lines/busted / counseling / not ready to quit
3 years ago (age 44) ~ still MLCing / kept up phone sex chat by purchasing second phone / busted again / more counseling / I start intensive counseling (IC and MC) / I make changes and think he is however he now moved to PAs / addiction escalates
5 months ago (age 47) ~ disclosure of PAs / possibly stuck head out of tunnel / commitment to recovery lasted 81 days / seemed happy with himself during that time (back to church, more balanced in work and home, spending quality time on relationship healing)
3 months ago ~ begins to get anxious / feeling stifled / ILYBIANILWY / "DONE"
6 weeks ago ~ moves out / nightmare begins

So in a nutshell - I think H went into MLC that triggered sexual addiction and now he appears to be in an acute phase. I can only pray that he recognizes at some point that he needs help ~ but it will not happen soon. I have not texted or called him now in 2 days and it really helps to stay away from the illness.

Thanks to all for your patience with me! Tomorrow - Orlando or bust:)