Yes, I have been playing the victim for to long. I am not saying that I am better by any means. But, I realize that I am the one doing this to me. I have been hurting myself, I have been making myself feel the way I do. I have been making myself out to be the victim. The quotes on here help and get me pumped up but then something like sleep happens and I seem to lose all my strengh. I am a wimp but I don't have to be the victim.
Better than the mess that has been hand delivered into your lap...
Once you change your perspective and decide that you are better, you deserve better and you will no longer settle - Then you will see what I am trying to say to you.
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
The fact is the damage did happen over night, in about 5 days. I never knew that there was a problem, in fact there wasn't until she started taking drugs again.
Don't know what to tell u anymore Par. Time to buck-up. Get some meds. U can't keep doing this to yourself. Time to snap out of it. You have a lot going for u.
I dont know what to tell myself. Great out of this mess that you are creating for yourself. Be happy, work, go to school, play golf-that is the three things you like to do. I want to do those things. I really do. I want be happy. I want to live a fulfilled life. I have a friend that is a girl but I just don't want to drag her into this anymore than I have. I don't tell her these things. If she was smart she would run from me if I did. I really don't find her attractive but I like talking with her. I just can not believe what has happened. Stills seems like a nightmare. And then calling me and begging to come back. She did this last week and I said ok. And then she didn't show. Why, why do people play with others like this?
