Par, do you have a therapist? if so, you need to schedule an appointment today/tomorrow. I have been there and I know how it feels.
Stop talking to her. Has she cleaned up being on drugs? Has she divorced her H? What is it about her that you think you can't live without? She will only do these things if you take her back? If she is REALLY serious about wanting a M wiht you, she would have already worked on herself.
She is holding on to you because simply... HER LIFE SUCKS.....and she thought it would be easier and happier if she left. You have to pull yourself out of this slump!!!
Do you have friends? Do you workout? Go to the park? Have a hobby? Take up one if you don't already have one.
I will check on you later, but you have to get out of this pit....
Me 41/H 49 M 12yrs No Kids Bomb 1/10/2010 H Deployed The three great essentials to achieve anything worth while are, first, hard work; second, stick-to-itiveness; third, common sense. T. Edison
