I guess I should have used mad instead. She did give me $20 to take the kids to get something to eat. How nice of her. It is hard to feel anything for a woman that has done so much damage to our family. She says it is okay to divorce because she will make sure the kids are okay. I don't know how she thinks she will do that when divorce has such a negative impact on the kids the most.
She's going to rationalize it until the end, a humane and "good" divorce, she did the right thing. What you can do is start looking forward to life on your own ( and your kids ), you have to be good so you can give to your wife.
It will take a while, but eventually you will tire of "getting your butt" kicked, and start looking forward to some of the things you are going to do for yourself ( I FINALLY got to that stage and it took me two years ).