I feel good today, I forgot to tell you guys last night after I left an anger management meeting I pulled up to a 7-11 to get something to drink. A few "bangers" were hanging out with their crown vic on 22's. The mood I was in I was still in my workout stuff, cut up shirt and Gaspari Fatigues, I just started to think these guys are staring at me up and down, these guys have no idea what mood im in, my Glock is under the seat and my badge is on my visor, I kept cool and just had a look on my face, you guys just dont know what kinda day I have had, dont even try it. Felt like a modern day dirty harry a bit. But I controlled myself and got my Big GUlp!!!
Rob why do I constantly replay in my head " its over, her words in her journal" I feel I do this to make the blow less painful. I know they are her feelings at the time she wrote it, Just two weeks ago she was making subtle advances to rub my neck or just touch me and I blew her off. I hate the fact I dont see things right in front of me until its too late. But I will have agood weekend, had to throw that in.
