After Exposure - Keep It Going

[Quicksilver264]

Thank you Sunny!

Sadly, these are the final hours with my dog today. Her parents are coming here at 3pm, and then we are going to the vet.

She (the dog) has trouble controlling her bladder, and has to wear a diaper. So I am going to give her a bath, brush her, brush her teeth, and give her ice cream and peanut butter. I want her to meet death with dignity. And guess what? My wife "had" to go to "work" today. KNOW WHY? She was visiting the apartment buildings where she wants to move. Selfish is too good a word to describe her. Ego-maniacal gets it about right.

This is absolutely agonizing today. I took the final pictures with her this morning, and my heart just broke. I am terrified of later on tonight. My wife and her parents are going to relatives for the weekend, taking on of my other dogs with her, and leaving me alone. My family can't really travel, so I will be stuck here with only the memories of my girl (dog).

I know that my marriage ends with the life of this dog. She started the whole thing, and I prayed and prayed she could help save it. But last night my wife could not even summon one single smile with me in a self-shot picture of us with the dog. I am the only one of us smiling in the picture. The look on my wife's face says it all. She is just not there...

I know my divorce day will be even harder. But I am going to fight with everything I have left until that day.

Sometimes I just feel like the Universe will just not let up on me. Like it wants to see me break, unable to move or feel again.

Please pray for me, and ESPECIALLY pray my wife that she may see what she is TRULY doing. And doubly especially pray for for my dog. She will meet God today, and be at peace.