Hanging in there for the length of time that you're talking about is martyrdom, in my opinion. I'm trying to say that it will eat at your emotional and even your physical health, and will simultaneously not even look attractive to your wife (at some point, it starts to look pathetic).
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Well...then martyrdom it is. Unless I meet someone else and care for that person more than my WAW and feel that is a better relationship for me, I won't give up our marriage. It's just not in me to do so.
In order for it to not look pathetic to my WAW, I will not make that declaration anywhere but here, and will GAL, but live every day with the goal and intention of saving my marriage. Right up until the day I meet my goal or I sign those papers.
When I said my vows, of "til death do us part" I meant it. Obviously, at some point I may not have a choice, but until then, I choose to continue. I still try to prepare myself for the worst, and if that is the end result, I will be able to live the rest of my life knowing I truly did everything I could to honor my vows.
