Not sure if the LRT is working but W now seems a bit more interested in whats happening in my life. Funny thing is the other day she remarked that i was showing all the symptoms of someone who was having an A. She also said she was jealous of how much fun i seem to be having. She doesn't seem to know what she wants.
i know that despite the fact that she is the one who wanted out my life seems to be going a lot better and I am having a great summer despite what is happening at home.
One question for all you DB guys out there and particularly those doing the LRT how do you keep your motivation up. I still very much love my W and want our marriage to survive but right now my life outside the home is good and it kinda brings me down when I have to spend time in her company. She always seems either depressed or busy trying to be cold to me.
Recently I refused to mind her Son as I had something arranged for that evening and she flipped out and said if I cant continue to watch her Son while she works shifts that there was no point in living in the same house. I just told her we can sell the house and separate now if that's what she wants and if she doesn't want to live with me then she has choices.
Next morning i asked her to pick up a separation kit and again she just flipped out on me but never picked one up.
4 months of this and it is really wearing me down. I cannot stand living with someone who is being so cold to me. I am contemplating forcing the separation and selling the house.Only problem is i feel that as soon as I make this call the M is over from my perspective. I really admire you guys who seem to have endless patience.
I know part of LRT and DB is never bring up the R talk but I really feel like sitting her down and telling her she needs to either work on this or go her own way as I want to get on with my life.
