Heartbroken and needing help!

[irishblessings]

OK - so it's 9:30pm and I worked all day ~ actually got some things done. Made some people laugh. Was "up" in spirits. Felt good - felt like I haven't been myself in forever. I was actually RELAXED. Crazy how it has been so long - I've been burying myself in my grief, hurt. Threw on a sundress today and realized that it was loose. Haven't stepped on a scale but I feel smaller.

Came home - cut the grass / vacuumed out the car / watered the flowers. S and I have found a yellow lab puppy that we will be getting on the 31st. We had a yellow lab for 13+ years and she passed 2 years ago. S has wanted one - but I told him we needed to wait until he was driving. So, S and I decided last week that we were ready. So excited (I think:)) Another healthy distraction.

H texted me and the kids today. Told us that he was hired by the extended stay hotel. He will be working some evenings and will receive free room. He is moving in August 2nd. Then he starts back as a high school counselor on August 7th.
I did not respond (thanks Lin) - what could I even say? Does anyone else besides me see this as some crazy ass behavior? My kids do. At this point, I can honestly say I don't really care. To me, he's always had some quirks ~ but I loved them. Thought we complimented each other:) I loved him and still do.

Respectfully standing.