Let's all talk about anti-climactic and pointless.

So I start by trying to get the banking stuff I started finished.
She has no current paystub. She'll get Fridays and leave it at the house.
She won't sign the Line of Credit papers without seeing my May statements. So I'll leave them tomorrow.

She agreed to the changing of the Sunday Calla swap to Friday and I'm good for vacation.

She asked inane questions (could my girlfriends and I buy the house) and told pointless sories about her cousin dumping her in the lake in "Vacation town"

20 questions and "advice" about taking Call on vacation. Watch her in the water, bugscreen, etc. If anything happens to her I want to know.

ABSOLUTELY NOTHING about the exposure; the affair; nothing. All about the Sep Agreement and protecting her #ss. Selfish to the n'th degree. Me, me, me.

So,I said "it seems we have accomplished nothing other than a detail on childcare. So I'll leave you with this"

I will not live in an open marriage. It is completely disrespectful to me and my values. What you are doing to this family is selfish and irresponsible. Though I fully accept my half of the responsibilty of our M last fall, your affair and your half- as well as the divorce- you own.
I will not hide your lies or the affair.
I'll have a mediator I selected contact for an appointment as early in August as possible to get our Sep Agreement finalized. If you want a divorce, I deserve better and am moving on"

I have to be somewhere so I'm leaving. See ya."

So as I'm leaving, she says "That's it. Just going to walk away?"

I said "There is nothing left to discuss, is there? You've made the decision for all of us."

She was unbelievable. Almost proud; Couldn't have cared less.

When I could see the complete lack of remorse, I admit my confidence was on the floor. I said my statement with no emotion at all. I held my posture but barely.

What a complete waste of my time and effort these last three months to understand our situation and the last 6.5 years of my life. To end like this. To be treated like this.

If you had told me on our weeding day that we'd be divorcing before 4 years I'd have said "How's the crack?"

I have no idea how to feel. I'm numb again. Uninspired and feeling degraded.

THE most humiliating day in my life.

And my D had to be there. I felt awful for her.