Think I am dead now.

[ShellDoll]

Par -

I feel and truly understand the pain and grief you are experiencing. There is no far greater pain than the loss of someone you love unconditionally and with all of your heart. I think we (the LBS) are all experiencing this stifling pain. I have been reading your posts and I have nothing but the most utmost respect for what you are going through.

But I want YOU to know that you are worth more than the pain you are experiencing. YOU deserve more than what you spouse has put you through. YOU will come through this pain..you must because nothing, nor no one can ever be more to you than you are to yourself. You CAN DO THIS!! You just have to pick yourself up and focus not on her, but YOU. You are important, what she wants, does, or says, DOES NOT matter. You matter.

Par, you seem like a very caring person. I understand how this sitch can affect our basic thoughts. PLEASE, think about you and not her...I care about you...We here on the boards care about you....