Think I am dead now.

[WalkingMan]

Par, have you thought that maybe it's time for a real change?

My life has been a series of chapters with definate beginnings and ends and there have been a few horrible endings. But ultimately, where I found my strength is by rediscovering myself and breaking out on a new journey.

After college, I had a huge breakup with a fiancee and lost a close friend to a long term illness. I sold everything I had and saved up for a few months...then I bought a backpack and traveled for nearly a year. I regained my faith in people and in myself. I too survived cancer as well and I see it as the gift of appreciation for life.

When my XW left me, it was the last in a series of trageties.
I forced myself to get into shape, reconnect with friends, go surfing, mountaineering.... I just went through the motions and watched myself doing it, without feeling it. Then it happened, women started taking interest. What I was doing became part of who I really am.

I have nothing but pity and best wishes for my XW. Her life is hell, so now I'm the lucky one.

That's where you will be, just be patient.

No worries!