True, I don't want it. i want to feel like me again. but i dont even know who i am anymore. I was a family man that love my ex and my daughter and wanted good things for them. I planned my future based on our lifes together. I dont know if they even knew that. I lived for my family not for myself, so after 9 years i do not have any identity of my own so to speak of. And, the sad thing is I dont know how to find it. I am a golf pro, college teacher and grad student. But as far as fun and a life and a future-I have no plans, i cant even imagine what i want to do. I want a soul mate but i know that is not coming anytime soon.
