Thanks for the thoughts pinhead. I really am trying. I dont feel the strength yet and i am a Christian. I have been praying for healing. So far, nothing, I am not getting better. I am getting worse I think. I just feel like I have nothing to live for. So what if i get my masters? Who do I share my success with? I have no family. I am good for noone right now. I am not dating because I know that i would just be a drag. my family has move on and replaced me with out a second thought.
When you pray or meditate or whatever it is you do, when you ask for something you're basically saying "I need this". It is a statement of WANT. Making a statement of WANT is a statement of lack.
WANTING something only pushes it further away. HAVING something is being confident and knowing you already have it within you. Just some food for thought.
----"Et tu, Brute?"---- me:28 W:24 S4 T:6 M:4 EA Exposed: 5/21/10 Bomb: 6/20/10 (Father's Day) NC w/ OM: 7/10/10 W moved out 8/21/10 http://bit.ly/aOrZne - My sitch
