Thanks for the advice. I am trying. I just don't know how much longer I can take it. I am on medical treatment. I am working hard, i am going to school, I have been playing golf everyday. I exercise but I can't eat. i am losing weight like crazy-32 pounds in 3 weeks. i look like a shell or myself. I am depressed beyond an logically doubt. I don't want to wake up anymore. I hate it. I really do not like life. This "gal' is what i am trying to do. I don't like my life or I can't imagine one that i would like with out my family in it. I truly am worthless and I know it. I don't think it would help if she came back. i still think that i would be so depressed that i just want it to end. Sorry to put all this on you guys but I don't want my freinds and family to think that i am as crazy as i am.
