I just want to get on with my life. Feeling this detached is nice in some ways, cuz the pain is so much lower than just a few days ago. I often confuse detaching with stopping my emotions towards her.
Yesterday (before the accident) she was upset because I sent her an email saying that our bank balance was low. She was upset because she worried about having enough money to make her trip next weekend, and that I had used an email to tell her. I find emails are an easier way to discuss stuff lately, because we have so little time together due to our schedules.
She started talking about something and said that she was having trust issues with me; I told her that her distrust was something she needed to deal with.
She was scheduled to meet with our pastor for a one-on-one session, but I don't know if she met. I'm not going to bring it up with her. If she straightens herself out, bully for her. I'm living my own life now.
