Hey Guys, Yesterday I spent most of the day with my S before he and W leave to go back home this morning. He will probably be gone for about 3 weeks (which sucks) although S and I had a great time we saw Grown Up’s pretty funny if ya wanna laugh. W comes back Tues. and I get to watch the pets while she’s gone; at least I can take my Great Dane for walks. Anyway it sucks because not only will I miss S more I ‘m missing the Family party. In her family no one really understands are situation of why we’re D except that it’s not my decision.
This whole thing sucks and I hate to think of all the things I could have done from being here, but I can’t keep looking in the past… Yes had some contributing factors to her decision on the D.
However this was her choice and it was her decision to go outside the M. I want to move forward and save the M; it’s just tough when I have days like this knowing that for the first time in 6 yrs that we aren’t going home together, or i my efforts are paying off at all sometimes I think so.
It’s just hard to tell because were separated, trying not to talk too much, the fact that the OM might still be in the picture etc. I don’t have a clue where we stand about the separation agreement or pending D (Oh well). This week I’m going to call some mediators that my IC/MC recommended.
(Like to try to avoid lawyer fees, I just don’t know where we stand after our last argument /talk). IC/MC has helped a lot, and is glad that I went on this site for support and advice. As I wasn’t sure at first, but I’m truly glad I did; and I can’t thank everyone enough for all the advice and kind words it helps out a lot.
